I have been thinking about pain.Look out I might get dark here.Johnny Cash understood pain long before he did Nine Inch Nails 's song Hurt.Pain can be a terrible thing - no not a burnt finger
or a sprained ankle or even a punch in the face ( and I have had plenty and given plenty ) - punches and burns though I have never had a sprained ankle though people tell me it is painful and I am gonna take their word for it.
The pain I am talking about is that gutwrenching emotional pain.Trouble type pain.Jimi Hendrix type song about it.I found out an old fiancé of mine died .I don't know the circumstances but hey I ain't 92 so I guess it weren't " natural causes " though the way she lived her life you don't need to be psychic .........
Kinda made me feel sick ......queasy ..... like when you had too many chillies or that curry didn't agree with you.Emotional pain can cause physical reactions ( no shit Sherlock !).
She had had a very tough life .Beautiful .Tragic. When we parted ways we left mutually , not working out - just I don't have time to ...go into it.I had always wished she met some rich , kind guy and lived happily ever afterward.Yeah right like that is the way.Ha !
Okay so what about us......
How is it gonna end ?
Dribbling on yourself in a nursing home ?
Alone and crazy with worry about the bills ?
Sick , unloved and lonely ?
Relatives like carrion birds waiting to descend ?
It doesn't worry me .
Other people and their pain concerns me more.
The people you love and the people you have loved
defines us better anyway.
Well at least in my case.